Justin and I decided to watch a documentary titled
"Fading West" by Switchfoot last weekend. It was a really inspiring
story and made me think a lot. I actually have been in a contemplative state
for a little while, and I am now taking the time to sit down and write out a
bit of our story over the last few months and where we are in this journey we
are on.
When I was browsing alone on YouTube watching surfing videos
(strange, I know, but a slight obsession of mine), I came across this video
advertising for the "Fading West" documentary. I was reminded of the
song "The Shadow Proves The Sunshine" by Switchfoot, and I thought
about how the lyrics were so appropriate for the journey Justin and I have been
on together since we got married.
Sunshine, won't you be my mother?
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath
We Are
Dry eyes in the pouring rain while
The shadow proves the sunshine
Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight when
The shadow proves the sunshine
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Oh Lord, why did you forsake me?
Oh Lord, don't be far away (away)
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way
We Are
Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain while
The shadow proves the sunshine
Two scared little runaways
Hold fast till the break of daylight when
The shadow proves the sunshine
When we embarked on this adventure of marriage, we really
had NO idea what we were getting into. Justin was happy with me doing missions
on my own short term, while he pursued his dreams of studio success. We tried
to buy a house before our wedding, but were unable to. We were helping with a
church plant in Brandon while we were engaged and then decided to help with
another one just before our wedding in New Port Richey. We wanted so badly to
live close to our church, but we were unable to because of work and because we
could not find a house. We settled for an apartment in Tampa, and made treks in
all directions to make our lives work.
In the spring after we got married, I stopped working with
the missions organization I was with because of finances. Then, in the summer,
we began the house search again after moving in with Justin's parents. After a
long struggle, we got a house and were getting ready to move in. Then,
everything changed, we were suddenly given the opportunity to come to China in
the new year, to try something for six months. We moved into our house, lived
there for three months, found tenants, and moved to China.
We were not met without opposition, because no one
understood why we would make such a rash decision. For both of us, it was a
perfect solution. Justin could still do his studio work while I pursued my
dreams of doing work in another country. We were happy to quit dead end jobs without
meaning and run to greater horizons. We could not answer the questions: What
will you be doing there? Are you going to be working? Where will you live? How
will you communicate?
We just did not have the answers. We still do not have all
the answers.
This is where the shadow comes in. Everything here is much
different than we ever pictured. I did not get a job at an international
school. It is very difficult to get a teaching job here without a teaching
degree and many years of experience. Justin did not get huge opportunities to
work in the music industry. It just does not work like that here.
Our situation with our house dramatically deteriorated as
well. We are currently in the process of evicting tenants and are looking for
new ones. We are behind on mortgage payments. We have thankfully been able to
make payments on everything else at home. We have literally had to wait on the
Lord for every penny. Which is a constant battle within my control freak soul.
We have questioned God on what our purpose is: Why did you
bring us to China? What do you want us to do? Do you really want us here? Why
is all of this happening?
His answer to us... "Just trust me."
So, here comes the sunshine!
Justin and I have an awesome church community here. We are
both in discipleship groups and are actively participating in a community of
believers that come along side us, support us, and encourage us. We are both
able to serve in multiple areas of our church and work within our areas of
strength. We have grown together as a couple in Christ so much. We study
scripture together and pray together. We have no choice but to lean on God and
take each step alongside him. We have gained so much perspective on our purpose
as a couple and what God desires of us.
At home, in our crazy lives, in our comfort zones, this
would have NEVER happened. God got our attention!
We are so thankful for the support of our parents in this
insane journey. We are thankful to our faithful friends, John and Megan, who
put up with us in insanely small quarters (we are upgrading soon!). We are
thankful for our church in the US and here in China for being such awesome
brothers and sisters in Christ.
We ask that you PLEASE pray for us. For our work here. For
our journey in our relationship with Christ. For our house and how to move
forward.
We would love to set up a communication through email with
those of you who would like it. My email is blythe.ure@gmail.com.
We are also needing some physical support. We need to take
care of our house and need help moving forward. We need to find tenants, so if
you have any advice or know of someone needing a home, please contact me. Also,
if you are able to make a financial donation on our behalf to help with our US
home, please contact me.
We love you all so much, and miss our US family and friends!
Happy Valentine's Day!